I spoiled it all.......?

I don't know about your faith, but love is love. My wedding vows were, "For better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health". Being financially sound is important to starting a family, but what is a family without love? You can have all the money in the world and not be happy one day, but get real true love, and you'll never know a day of sadness.